Heat

Today's schedule:
6:30 wake up, brush teeth, get dressed (where are all my shorts?!)
7:00 drive dog to river and walk 5 miles
8:30 feed dog, eat cereal, glare at messy kitchen
9:00 nap with dog
10:30 shower
11:00 iron clothing (I haven't ironed in YEARS!)
11:30 blow-dry hair, makeup
12:00 lock up dog, get cash from bank, find parking
12:28 (for 12:30 date) stand at entrance to restaurant and wait
12:36 glance at time, pick up free paper and read, even though I've already read it
12:43 start to do paper's crossword in pen
12:52 walk back to car, drive home--confused, disappointed, annoyed, embarassed
12:59 uncage dog, eat chicken, wander house thinking how much needs to be done and how I don't want to do any of it
1:45 email date expressing fear of having missed him, hope for his well-being, resignation to his likely disinterest, and suggestions for repair
1:55 flip on some movie. Feel bad for having accomplished nothing during day.
2:20 nap
6:05 wake, call Mom to make plans for her to drill sergeant my ass for getting this house cleaned up
6:25 read response from date, written partly in Latin (surprisingly attractive), explaining absence due to termites but mostly humiliation for simply having forgotten our plans. Believe sincerity of regret but wonder at intelligence of pursuing relationship anyway. Feel bad for having accomplished nothing during day.
6:35 even though not really hungry, eat 3 cold tacos while reading chapter 3 of Wise Blood. Feel bad for having accomplished nothing during day.
6:52 realize that I have an article due on Monday, have no draft, thesis, interview appointments, or photos and freak out
7:05 return to computer to research/draft article
7:06 look at eBay
7:08 look at Reuters and BBC
7:13 look at livejournal of troubling (and possibly troubled) young woman I know who keeps attacking people I like
7:14 email. Feel bad for having accomplished nothing during day.
7:28 post day's events to Blogger in hopes of divining some wisdom.
7:29 Gain no insight. Feel bad for having accomplished nothing during day.